Hurt, Angry, Lost


I am feeling pretty lost. Last week, I found out that I did not get the child life internship. It was my fourth time applying.

After my interview, I said that I would be disappointed if I did not get it but that I was glad to finally have an onsite interview. I also said that I believe everything happens for a reason...blah, blah, blah

But, that feeling is out the door.


I am mad, I'm hurt, and I feel lost. At this point, I just don't know what to do. I don't feel like I will ever be good enough (to get a child life internship at my desired location). I have my degree, I have done my practicum and I have dedicated 7 years of my life to this company. I also have plenty of people in the field cheering for me but none of it is enough. I am not what they are looking for.


If everything happens for a reason, what does this mean? What is it that I am supposed to be doing with my life? And why, at almost 40 years old haven't I figured it out yet?

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