I'm okay, I'm still me


I want to thank everyone that has been reaching out to me. I really am okay. I know everyone is used to me always being upbeat and positive and honestly, I still am....I'm just a little lost at the same time.

There are tons of us that didn't get picked. Tons of us. Most applicants apply to children's hospitals all over the United States. Someone told me they applied to 30 hospitals. I applied to 1, just 1. Not only does it limit my options, but I have less interview experience than my counter parts. But it still hurts. Especially because of my personal connection to that 1 place that I applied.

And it isn't that I am "giving up" but I do think it is reasonable to be exploring my other options. For example, I could get my Masters of Arts in Teaching and become a teacher. Maybe I could even be in a small classroom setting where I could do some therapeutic type activities.

I have a great job. I really do. I am able to interact with patients and families everyday. I know I am good at my job and that people appreciate me but, I've just kinda outgrown my job. It's not about the patient care side, it's the other things...I just need a change.

So, yeah. I'm okay, I'm still the same ole' Nicole. I'm just disappointed that I am not where I "want" to be in my career.


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